I’m generally a very attentive person. I pay attention to those little details that usually no one pays attention to. These little moments tend to get stuck in my head for a very long time. Sometimes, it can be good.. Well at least I used to see the good in that but not anymore. Remembering the past makes me long and yearn for days that I can never have back. Is it true that we’ve already lived our best days? Sometimes I refuse to believe that. Why then do we have to continue living if all our future days are overshadowed by the greatness of what was? Maybe we should have appreciated them more while they were actually happening. If we had had our full share of them, we wouldn’t be longing for the past anymore.. Or would we? Or maybe it really is better that they are in the past now. We saw these moments in the best way possible. Maybe if we were to relive them, we would ruin them.. I tend to get confused about this a lot nowadays, and the only solution I’ve found is the one that hurts the least. A kind of coping mechanism I’ve learned over the years. You might be wondering what it is.. Well, It’s to not over think things.. Let go of matters that are out of your hands. Things that you can’t control but consume your mind will eventually consume all of you.
There was something about birthdays that always excited me.. It’s like I was the one being surprised, I was the one being gifted something.. Not the other person.. What excited me the most is preparing gifts for the people closest to me… Every ounce of thinking went to making something that I hoped would be counted as thoughtful enough to make them smile.. The sad part though, is that my special people are usually far from me nowadays.. Distance. The thing I despise most in this life. Maybe I should write a post about that some other time… For this birthday.. I decided to write.. Write a little bit.. Express my emotions and thoughts to someone who might have become a stranger to them for some time now.. It would be kind of selfish and unfair of me to make a wish instead of that person on his special day but nevertheless I am going to do so.. I hope you get back your best friend, and I get back mine because I really do miss him.. I miss that one person I used to tell everything to and that one person who used to take me as I am… I miss sharing good music, good laughs, good everything with that one person.. So my wishes for you this year are, alongside getting everything you wished for and being as successful as ever, I wish that I get my best friend back… Happy Birthday!:)